It has been one week since I have moved from my hometown in Pennsylvania to the town of Eliot, Maine. Let me begin by giving you the short story of how I ended up in Maine. I became a member of the Baha'i Faith in April 2012, after six months of falling in love with the religion, and also the people of the religion. I love everything about the Baha'i Faith. I love the way I can relate to everything Abdu'l Baha and Baha'u'llah says, and how it applies to the real world, today's world. I love how (most) of the people of the Baha'i Faith are world-oriented and compassionate and aren't hippies but yet they still are obsessed with PEACE. In winter/spring of 2012, I was going through a super rough period. I was miserable with school, because I had no idea what to study, and my life feltmeaningless and dull. I took my pain and frustrations out on friends and family, and even more so on myself. I hurt, the people around me hurt, life just hurt. I wanted to go away somewhere, somewhere I liked to be, surrounded with people whom I liked. I thought of fleeing to another random country, just as I had to Iceland the year before, and backpacking and meeting all kinds of strange, interesting and beautiful people, just like in Iceland. I would learn so much, just like in Iceland.
But I wanted to do something full of meaning. Something that not only meant something to me, but meant something to the people around me. I have caused enough hurt in the world, I wanted to be a cause of love and joy, and happiness.
I remember deciding on coming to serve at Green Acre Baha'i School here in Maine. I remember where I was when I said these exact words to my friend Shaida "It just feels right". For the first time in my life, something felt right. Something felt solid under my feet. We were outside a Thai restaurant, if you're curious.And back to that night and feeling I always go when I question my place in life. When I get scared, or I feel alone, back to that feeling I turn my thoughts. Because that feeling, that feeling of something finally being RIGHT is the solidity I have always craved for. It is that solidity that we as humans crave constantly. Without solidity, we crumble to pieces. Without it, we fall through thin air, grabbing anything and anyone who happens to be near us. And that feeling was the start of a journey, a journey to find true foundation, a foundation that I have always carried in mysoul.
So that is how I appeared at Green Acre Baha'i School.I am going to blog whenever and as much as I am feeling like. It might be once a day, once a week or once a month. No guarantees! But I'd love you to follow me through, on yet another one of my journeys. I'm so lucky to have so many journeys, so many adventures. They're a part of who I am, a part of my nomadic human nature. I am a living example of a life lesson I did not learn until a year or so ago: IMPERMANENCE. So thank you each and every person who has supported me on each one, and even those who did not support me, because you got me to where I am today.
But I wanted to do something full of meaning. Something that not only meant something to me, but meant something to the people around me. I have caused enough hurt in the world, I wanted to be a cause of love and joy, and happiness.
I remember deciding on coming to serve at Green Acre Baha'i School here in Maine. I remember where I was when I said these exact words to my friend Shaida "It just feels right". For the first time in my life, something felt right. Something felt solid under my feet. We were outside a Thai restaurant, if you're curious.And back to that night and feeling I always go when I question my place in life. When I get scared, or I feel alone, back to that feeling I turn my thoughts. Because that feeling, that feeling of something finally being RIGHT is the solidity I have always craved for. It is that solidity that we as humans crave constantly. Without solidity, we crumble to pieces. Without it, we fall through thin air, grabbing anything and anyone who happens to be near us. And that feeling was the start of a journey, a journey to find true foundation, a foundation that I have always carried in mysoul.
So that is how I appeared at Green Acre Baha'i School.I am going to blog whenever and as much as I am feeling like. It might be once a day, once a week or once a month. No guarantees! But I'd love you to follow me through, on yet another one of my journeys. I'm so lucky to have so many journeys, so many adventures. They're a part of who I am, a part of my nomadic human nature. I am a living example of a life lesson I did not learn until a year or so ago: IMPERMANENCE. So thank you each and every person who has supported me on each one, and even those who did not support me, because you got me to where I am today.
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